How many times have I been asked what on earth do I do all day, stuck at home with my kids. All that free time. I must be so bored!!! In a world that is task orientated, where success is measured by ticking things off your to do list or worse by what you are earning. Even though these are not my measures they are pervasive in our thinking.
I have a list a mile long of things I need to be doing!!! Really I do!!! I need to be thinking about school especially. Summer unfortunately doesn’t last forever!!! I need to box up last years work and sort and shuffle and clear space and no this is not part of my usual routine.
So my to do list is lurking at the back of my mind and nothing is getting ticked off the list. Day after day the father person comes home and asks me: “How was your day?” and day after day I say: “I have done nothing.” I feel like I have done nothing and it looks like I have done nothing. The house basically looks the same as when he left in the morning…
That in and of itself demonstrates that I am not doing a whole lot of nothing … because if I was doing nothing the house would look like a bomb went off!!!
I didn’t do nothing: I made a number of meals, I did a mountain of laundry, I taught someone how to tie their own laces, I read a heap of story books, I took the kids swimming for ages and I listened to a million tales of wonder – that is probably the biggest thing I did… listened and listened as little people gave me the running commentary on their life. And at the end of it all they are happily tucked up in bed and fast asleep. The kitchen is clean and tidy and ready for tomorrow… and just at this moment the bathroom is clean as well. Todays tasks are done.
I should be thrilled, but like most moms there is a little nagging voice at the back of my mind reminding me that I am doing nothing… because on my ever growing to do list nothing got ticked. Actually I managed to mend some books and begin sorting through our school dresser. And yesterday the Hoods and I spring cleaned all the kitchen cupboards – unpacked everything, wiped the cupboards clean and put everything back.
That to-do list is not tick-free but I think when we look back on our day and we didn’t do more on the list. In fact not even half of the list was even considered… it is frustrating. It is frustrating to spend the afternoon nursing and reading stories on the couch… when I have so much to do… But I need to change what I am thinking… A chubby cheeked baby and chilled out kids who want to spend the afternoon reading isn’t on my to-do list. I should be changing what is going on to my to-do list, because I am certainly not doing nothing!!!
This Post was hammered out as part of The Thirty Minute Mom’s Challenge at Steady Mom. The photographs were taken from my flickr pool, so didn’t need load up time.